influence

today...my dear pineapple tart was sad...i watched as tears tumbled out of her, and suddenly felt the heaviness that was in her heart, in mine.my vision fogged. i know how u feel, di. i really do. and altho we did go mad in the canteen today with joce n shiqin, ur eyes still spelt the inner struggle u must be going thru. take care, girl. we're always here for u. :)
today...i msged my dear art club teacher from sc..n found that she was hospitalised since tuesday! she might lose her baby. my heart heavy and i was really shocked beyond words. she refused to ttell me which hospital cos she dint wan me to "feel obliged to come visit". i agreed to let her rest. but it must be pretty hard on her. her first baby, Caitlin's first birthday is coming soon. 5th feb. i gotta rmb. mrs yeo, i miss you lots. even tho u treated me like a part-time maid during those art club times. take care lots. and yes, i'll be good.
just now...my ma found blood in her stools. had fever and tumsy ache. just went hospital emergency place to see doc. mummy dont be afraid. u'll be fine. be strong ok. we're all praying for u. and dun worry, we can take care of ourselves.

a lump is rising in my throat.

dear God, please help.